I felt pretty good yesterday — barely any imbalance, and I went out and got lots of stuff done (including some shopping that I had been putting off for a really long time). I came home, put a bookshelf together, reorganized things at home, and generally felt pretty good.

Then I woke up this morning and felt like I was right back to where I was before when I had caught the cold I haven’t been able to get over. I felt stuffed up and had a headache, and felt extremely off balance.

However, the circus festival was here today, and I forced myself to go out and check out the festival. I went and took some really good pictures, and generally felt much better that I hadn’t decided to retreat back home where I could feel sick.

It’s so hard sometimes to force myself to do things, but I always feel better after I’ve bit the bullet and ignored how dizzy I feel. It’s weird how with most things (like a cold), it’s better to rest up and then you’ll get better.

But with the disequilibrium that I have to deal with every day, I think it’s actually better to go out and ignore how bad you feel. It’s so strange to have to deal with things in this way — it’s like I have to constantly fight against my judgment, which tells me to stay home and rest.

I sometimes wonder if it’s just the fresh air and exercise that end up making me feel better — not to mention distracting myself for a while. I just need to remember that pushing myself is often more beneficial than not pushing myself.